Monday, July 30, 2012

Make A Difference Monday

Happy Make A Difference Monday!


I was thinking about what to write about today

and thought I better come clean with where I'm at on my weight loss goal.

(from this post)

In all seriousness,

I wish I wouldn't have put the emphasis on weight loss.
For the majority of my life
I have been battling a weight issue.
It started from just 20 pounds
to where I'm at today.
(speaking of 20 lbs, I'm still down the 20 lbs from the start. That's an AMEN right there!)
But the issue isn't the weight.

The weight is a symptom.

This issue is how I feel about myself

and the voice that is constantly there

telling me,

"I'm not good enough".

 

It's funny.

In my heart,

I KNOW I am a good person.

But the mind is a funny thing.

Always lurking in the back

is that voice of doom & gloom,

bringing down everything good I try to do.


I wish it was as easy as flipping a switch and shutting it off,

but it's not.

It's always there,

even on days when I feel like I can beat it.

I do something good

and the voice lets me know I didn't do it

quite good enough.


So I'm changing my goal

and am not focusing on the weight,

but focusing on the fact that I am now 50 years old

and I need to put the voice to rest.

(and truly, I can't stand self-pity)

Once the voice is no longer an issue,

the rest will be a piece of cake

(OK…maybe a piece of apple…more healthy, you know….lol)

 

The voice isn't one person, or thing, or situation.

It's a combination of things.
I let it set me up to self-sabotage.

But I am learning to replace that voice
with positive affirmations.


Baby steps.

I will take baby steps

until I believe the good in me.


Maybe you think this sounds crazy, but to me it makes perfect sense.

I have to change the way I feel deep inside myself,

to change what's on the outside.


So on this Make A Difference Monday

I challenge you

(if you have that nasty voice)

to wake up every morning

with a positive thought

to replace that bad ass.

(sorry for the cursing)

Find a favorite quote,

or remember something nice someone said,

and let that voice begin to drown out the darkness.

I had a very good friend tell me to replace

that voice with their voice

and remember that I am wonderful.

That has been such a blessing to me.


And feel free to share with me,

either by leaving me a comment,

or sending me an email,

what your game plan is

to change the bad to the good.

(if you feel like I do, that is..

not everyone, thank goodness, does)


You are worth it.

I am worth it.


“It’s the repetition of affirmations that leads to belief.
And once that belief becomes a deep conviction, things begin to happen.”
– Claude M. Bristol

2 comments:

Cindy said...

I totally understand the problem of "enough". I have to wonder who is it that we are never "enough" for?

I've come to the conclusion that the only one that matters is God....and He sent His son so that I wouldn't have to worry about being "enough". Jesus did it so I don't have to. I am amazed at the pressure that relieved me of....free at last.

Mama Pea said...

I can totally relate. I am 47 years old and have battled weight my entire life. Last year, I lost about 59 pounds. I think I've gained 25 back. How depressing. I am trying to get back on it, but it is a constant struggle for me, too. Probably for the same reasons you've just described!